silence is my worst enemy

Im in a funk. A private funk but a funk none the less. my brain wont turn off some nights and it sucks. i found out a few days ago that my end in sight isnt an end..more like a pause in my current situation. i hate being alone...i hate feeling alone..physically and mentally. i just wish i didnt feel so empty on some nights. Worrying about things makes me sick to my stomach..not a good thing when I am trying so hard to lose weight. but despite my funk, ill be at the gym tomorrow and continue on with life as planned.