Thursday, January 26, 2012

why it pays to do it, even if you dont want to.

5 lbs gone since the 12th of Jan. I earned every single effing lb of that. I've worked hard to stop snacking when I am not hungry, I busted my ass at the gym. I turned every movable moment into a chance to burn some calories. Those 5lbs are my medal at the end of the race, my trophy for a job well done. My motivation to keep going.
    I have a cough today. One of those awful raspy, gonna lose my voice soon coughs. But I went to the gym, I climbed my big butt on to the elliptical and I got the job done. 2 miles in 30 mins. Not my best time. I CAN do better. But I did it. Then I rowed for 5 mins. And killed myself with some ab and leg work. I didn't stop. I didn't half ass it, I gave it my all, despite sounding like I was gasping for air every 5 minutes. I got sweaty, I got hot. I got what I went there for. I didn't want to go, but I did. And when I stepped on the scale I realized why I was there. It wasn't to impress anyone, or to kill time. It was all for me, and that moment, the pride I can take in myself this week knowing that I am 5lb closer to a happier me.

Even if you don't want to, do it anyway. It will payoff in the end.

Tuesday, January 10, 2012

funny story.

I am going to start today by telling you guys a funny story. It is OK to laugh, chuckle, snort whatever if you want. I will not be offended. I promise.

 So, as most mothers do, I am trying to make sure my girls practice healthy habits. My oldest does great. My youngest however would eat spoonfuls of sugar if I would let her. She is a sweet freak, but she comes by it honestly. I told her one night that she could not have another snack, and as most 3 year olds do she simply replied back with a "why." My response to her was that if she ate too many snacks she would get bigger and bigger and be too big. With her big brown eyes and adorable smile she looks right at me and goes
" you must have eaten ALL the snacks"

Ouch right? I was slightly mortified, humiliated and amused. I am glad she recognizes what I meant by big, and that yes, I have eaten way too many snacks lol. So I stopped snacking..kind of. I am a nighttime over eater.  If the hubs and I are sitting watching TV at night I will grab something every time I walk through the kitchen, which is alot. I have now, and for the past 5 nights not had a single bite of anything after 8pm. I sleep better, I feel better when I get up, I am hungry enough to not forget breakfast. It is alot easier than I thought. I am still doing the vegetarian thing but I will be REALLY glad to stop on Feb 1st. I want some chicken, BAD.

I am very faithful to the gym. Today was weird though because there were SO many people in the family room at the gym. 11 to be exact. Its usually me by myself or like 2 other people. You could tell some ladies were upset that all the elliptical were taken * there are only 3* and you could tell people were getting annoyed at the machines they had to work with. I didn't care though, I got an elliptical lol. And half of them wont be back after Jan 31st anyway haha. One thing I did notice was that everyone except for myself and another gal came in pairs. Why is that?? It seems like so many women CANNOT go to the gym without using the buddy system. I would rather be alone, work at my own speed and rock out to my music instead of keeping up a conversation or following someone around on THEIR routine. I guess its the one time in the day where I don't have anyone bugging me!!

How are you health habits going now with all the hype of getting in shape around?

Tuesday, January 3, 2012

New year, Kinda new me.

Ah well its been 1 year since I started this blog. I am 41 lovely followers strong and even though I didn't keep up with it towards the second half of 2011, I am hoping to update you guys better in 2012.
  As for my weight. I weighed in on Christmas at 268. Not 180 like I was aiming for but a loss at least. This is a bigger battle then I think even I realized. When I was 18 it seemed so easy. But then again what isn't easy at 18? I am still on the "losing" streak but I did NOT make weight loss my resolution. Its a cop out. Every one is on that bandwagon in Jan.
  This year I decided that each month I am going to do something I want to try before I die. This will continue long after the 2012 * and please no comments on the pending end of the world bs please!* This month is vegetarianism. A friend of mine asked via facebook if anyone wanted to give it a try with him and I am always up for a challenge so I volunteered. Day 1 was easy, I lived off of leftover cupcakes and spinach dip from our NYE party. Day 2 however proved more difficult. Especially when I took a bite of a chicken nugget * I spit it out* Today has gone pretty well, thanks to spinach pina colada smoothies and smart ones!! I am hoping this will A)keep me away from fast food and  B) give my body a cleanse. Help get rid of all the crap I ate in December.

 In Feb I will turn 27. My present to my self is a tattoo.. FINALLY! I am done saying someday I will get one. I want one, I NEED one. So I am gonna get one. I can't wait.

I also recently found a love for Zumba. I wanted to die while doing it and looked like a whale shaking its groove thing, but I loved it. I am hoping to get it for the Kinect or find a dvd so I can do it at home on top of my gym routine.*if you wanna call it that*

I am excite for a fresh start in 2012 and I hope all of you are ready for the same *if you want one*  If you have any ideas for topics you'd like me to write about please let me know. It's tough coming up with fresh ideas!

Love to you all continuing to follow my journey. And what a long one it is.