Today's weather made me so tired. I had a ton of things to do today, and despite the downpour I got it all done! The rain did however decide to stop when I got home. That's my luck though! Today was my first jam packed day on my own * minus my sister who watched Ashlin during speech therapy!!* and I rocked it! Girls were amazing and did so well! I might get the hang of this just in time for lance to get back :P
Tomorrow will be my first gym day in WEEKS! Going to get in the habit of going while Cailyn is at school and after Ashlin is done on Friday. 3 days in week in gym and one day a week of walking to speech therapy and back. But that will happen when the sun decided to start making a less the sporadic appearance. I also would like to start walking to dance and back but considering the hill I know I need to lose more weight so I don't die half way up it lol.
I've been seeing all over what people are giving up for lent. Although I am not Catholic I am going to challenge myself. No red meat and no candy. Keep in mind chocolate is not candy. I am talking things that are nothing but sugar and food coloring. Ick stuff anyway but in me giving it up I am going to not buy it for my girls. The red meat thing may last longer then the 40 days though. Kind of sick of it honestly. I can make just as many good dishes with ground turkey! Just like my mozzarella meatballs and the turkey chili that i am making tomorrow! I hope I can stick with it. I feel so good right now that I hope this carries the whole time he is gone. I REALLY want to surprise him with my weight loss!
On a non fat related note I need tips for my yard. Any good ideas for flowers that can survive my black thumb? I also plan on planting a garden so any help is great. Considering I am awful at this stuff though I am considering holding a " help me beautify my yard and my spirit" party. I feel better inside when my outside living space is beautiful. Would anyone be willing to come over and spend the day helping lol. I will provide food and drinks and a good time i promise!!
Something else that I am super excited about today is next weeks produce box from fullcirclefarm.com .. I love EVERYTHING in it. Money well spent. If you are interested visit the site. It is an amazing program if you live in this area and love fruits and veggies!
I hope everybody is having a great week! Happy Hump day!!!
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
Tuesday, March 8, 2011
rough night
Tonight was hard. Every time I started to clean up one mess they girls made another. The just pushed and pushed me to my limit time after time today. They both are in bed , and went surprisingly easy all things considered so now its just me and my thoughts for the rest of the night.
Thought 1 - 9 months is a really looong time
Thought 2 - its a lot harder to eat your feelings if you don't have any junkfood!!
Thought 3- I really should go to bed soon, I am exhausted.
Today as far as food goes went well. Poached eggs for breakfast along with some strawberries and a cup of coffee , a turkey wrap for lunch and some whole wheat pasta *small serving* with turkey meatballs for dinner. I snacked on a little chocolate but eh not a bad day if you ask me. Tomorrow is going to be super busy so I am hoping to keep up my good effort and make smart choices. I am also hoping a good night sleep will do my kids some good. I know it will me. I feel so off and those that know me personally know me out of my routine is not a good thing. However my incredible anxiety seems to be under control. I was so nervous that I wasn't going to sleep at night but I seem to be doing fine. I am having little moments of panic because lance still isn't permanently settled over there.. some paperwork and things is keeping him from having a permanent place to stay. Hoping his 9 months school isn't gonna cost us. Bleh. Happy thoughts .. happy thoughts! Almost Wednesday.. half way through my busy week. Hope I can find some energy to make it! LOL
Thought 1 - 9 months is a really looong time
Thought 2 - its a lot harder to eat your feelings if you don't have any junkfood!!
Thought 3- I really should go to bed soon, I am exhausted.
Today as far as food goes went well. Poached eggs for breakfast along with some strawberries and a cup of coffee , a turkey wrap for lunch and some whole wheat pasta *small serving* with turkey meatballs for dinner. I snacked on a little chocolate but eh not a bad day if you ask me. Tomorrow is going to be super busy so I am hoping to keep up my good effort and make smart choices. I am also hoping a good night sleep will do my kids some good. I know it will me. I feel so off and those that know me personally know me out of my routine is not a good thing. However my incredible anxiety seems to be under control. I was so nervous that I wasn't going to sleep at night but I seem to be doing fine. I am having little moments of panic because lance still isn't permanently settled over there.. some paperwork and things is keeping him from having a permanent place to stay. Hoping his 9 months school isn't gonna cost us. Bleh. Happy thoughts .. happy thoughts! Almost Wednesday.. half way through my busy week. Hope I can find some energy to make it! LOL
Monday, March 7, 2011
my release.
I think blogging at night will be almost therapeutic for me, so I am really trying to get myself in the habit of doing this before bed!
So I am at the end of day 3. I am eating REALLY well and I feel so much better. I forgot how great I feel when I eat healthy! Today I also had my "coach" help me with a little workout. My oldest decided that she was going to help me reach my goal of being a "skinny mommy" by having me run laps around the house and do some push ups and sit ups!! I love my little personal trainer!
On another note did you guys here that the guy who is the spokesperson for the heart attack grill died. He was 29. He died of complications brought on by the flu I guess. Now I know you are asking how this pertains to my blog but it does. Had he been a healthy weight and lived a healthy lifestyle he may have survived. Being obese does way more damage then whats seen on the outside. Not only does it do damage to your bones but it keeps you from being able to fight off diseases. Even if I didn't want to lose a pound this would make me want to make sure my self and my family eat a healthy balanced diet. Isn't it worth it to give yourself a fighting chance??
Something else on my mind today is my love of the Hungry Girl. I have the 200 under 200 cook book and made my first batch of chocolate chip softies. They are this amazingly delicious mix of a cookie and a muffin. Only 88 calories per decent sized cookie!! I know some of you are panting for the recipe so here it is!!
3/4 cup whole wheat flour
1/2 cp splenda *granulated*
6 tbsp no sugar added applesauce
1/4 cp canned pure pumpkin
1/4 cup liquid egg substitute
2 1/2 tbsp mini semi sweet choc chips
2 tbsp brown sugar *not packed*
3/4 tsp vanilla extract
1/4 tsp baking soda
1/8 tsp salt
mix all dry ingredients and except choc chips in a large mixing bowl.
in medium mixing bowl mix wet ingredients.
add wet to dry and fold in choc chips.
spray cookie sheet with non stick spray and place 8 even spoon fulls on sheet and bake for about 10 mins on 375!!
i hope i don't get in trouble for sharing the recipe on here but the hungry girl is amazing and if you haven't bought the book you totally should!!! its worth it and there is some really yummy things in there *cap n crunch shake anyone???* I wont be posting the recipes for everything I make but I will give reviews on the stuff i make!!!
well time for my sleepytime tea!
So I am at the end of day 3. I am eating REALLY well and I feel so much better. I forgot how great I feel when I eat healthy! Today I also had my "coach" help me with a little workout. My oldest decided that she was going to help me reach my goal of being a "skinny mommy" by having me run laps around the house and do some push ups and sit ups!! I love my little personal trainer!
On another note did you guys here that the guy who is the spokesperson for the heart attack grill died. He was 29. He died of complications brought on by the flu I guess. Now I know you are asking how this pertains to my blog but it does. Had he been a healthy weight and lived a healthy lifestyle he may have survived. Being obese does way more damage then whats seen on the outside. Not only does it do damage to your bones but it keeps you from being able to fight off diseases. Even if I didn't want to lose a pound this would make me want to make sure my self and my family eat a healthy balanced diet. Isn't it worth it to give yourself a fighting chance??
Something else on my mind today is my love of the Hungry Girl. I have the 200 under 200 cook book and made my first batch of chocolate chip softies. They are this amazingly delicious mix of a cookie and a muffin. Only 88 calories per decent sized cookie!! I know some of you are panting for the recipe so here it is!!
3/4 cup whole wheat flour
1/2 cp splenda *granulated*
6 tbsp no sugar added applesauce
1/4 cp canned pure pumpkin
1/4 cup liquid egg substitute
2 1/2 tbsp mini semi sweet choc chips
2 tbsp brown sugar *not packed*
3/4 tsp vanilla extract
1/4 tsp baking soda
1/8 tsp salt
mix all dry ingredients and except choc chips in a large mixing bowl.
in medium mixing bowl mix wet ingredients.
add wet to dry and fold in choc chips.
spray cookie sheet with non stick spray and place 8 even spoon fulls on sheet and bake for about 10 mins on 375!!
i hope i don't get in trouble for sharing the recipe on here but the hungry girl is amazing and if you haven't bought the book you totally should!!! its worth it and there is some really yummy things in there *cap n crunch shake anyone???* I wont be posting the recipes for everything I make but I will give reviews on the stuff i make!!!
well time for my sleepytime tea!
Sunday, March 6, 2011
Im BAAACCCKKK!
So due to the lack of wanting to I took a mini break from blogging..and my diet and exercise. Basically I am starting from square one right now. I feel great about it this time. I purged my cupboards of junk food and shopped with healthy habits in mind. I am going to get back on the wagon *hopefully it doesn't break!* and its starting today. Breakfast is 2 poached eggs and a slice of a whole grain toast. lunch will consist of a salad with a bit of tuna and some other raw veggies. The girls and I are going to look through my healthy cookbooks and decide something to make. I am going to go to the gym tomorrow after ashlins drs appt. good start in my book i guess. Within the next month of so I am starting a food plan that my friend Amy sent to me. Very easy and so healthy. She lost 95 lbs in 10 months. She looks amazing!! I need to get a food scale though . I am going to look for one this week!
Another way I am trying to not self sabotage is going on a VERY strict cash only budget while lance is gone. Not only do me and the girls have to manage here but he has to have $ while he is gone also . I have decided to really limit my spending and in doing that I have to make smarter choices at the store and won;t have room in the budget to go out to eat all the time like we have been. In the long run it is going to be a great way to save money too! I am really trying to do things different while he is gone so when he gets home I have these new habits in place.
I miss him like crazy and it makes it really hard to focus on me. It has only been a few days and I know it will get easier as the days go on but right now it is all i think about really. I have had lots of distractions this weekend thanks to amazing friends though! and yesterday I took the trash out for the first time since living here lol. Lance usually does it. I felt incredibly independent but i can't wait for him to be back lol.
That's it for today! Tomorrow night I will get in the habit of writing every night! I need routine so bad!
Another way I am trying to not self sabotage is going on a VERY strict cash only budget while lance is gone. Not only do me and the girls have to manage here but he has to have $ while he is gone also . I have decided to really limit my spending and in doing that I have to make smarter choices at the store and won;t have room in the budget to go out to eat all the time like we have been. In the long run it is going to be a great way to save money too! I am really trying to do things different while he is gone so when he gets home I have these new habits in place.
I miss him like crazy and it makes it really hard to focus on me. It has only been a few days and I know it will get easier as the days go on but right now it is all i think about really. I have had lots of distractions this weekend thanks to amazing friends though! and yesterday I took the trash out for the first time since living here lol. Lance usually does it. I felt incredibly independent but i can't wait for him to be back lol.
That's it for today! Tomorrow night I will get in the habit of writing every night! I need routine so bad!
Friday, March 4, 2011
first day
so today is my official first day. dropped lance off and now i can start the countdown til he comes home. i am doing this from my phone though so tonight i will make an officialy post.
Wednesday, February 23, 2011
sniff sniff cough cough
I want to not be sick. Is that too much to ask?? LOL. This cold is ongoing and it's a real bitch *kinda like me, so I guess I have karma to thank?* The nice thing is though that I haven't been super hungry all the time. I still wake up and get a good breakfast in. Fresh fruit, yogurts , possibly a piece of whole grain toast. I really am focused in my head but sometimes I lose track at the end of the day.
My anxiety about Lance leaving is getting worse. I am a nervous eater, a nervous scratcher, a nervous cleaner. I find myself getting really panicked about little things right now. Clutter, unmade beds, things of that nature. I am trying to stay calm and take it day by day but the days are getting fewer and fewer and I am scared about it all. The other night Lance went out with some friends and I was here by myself. I thought it was a nice test run for what life will be like . I was so nervous to go to bed. I made a walk through of the house 4 times. Checking doors and windows and things around the outlets. I get paranoid and then I am wide awake. This cold was my saving grace because it makes me so tired at the end of the day. I am hoping after a few weeks I can get used to the anxiousness and sleep better at night. When he would be on duty in Virginia I would stay up til 3 or 4 in the morning then sleep til 10..It is not an option here because I have to get up and function for the sake of my girls. I am hoping to having to step up and not just worry about me will give me enough strength to do the things that have to be done, for my self and for them.
My anxiety about Lance leaving is getting worse. I am a nervous eater, a nervous scratcher, a nervous cleaner. I find myself getting really panicked about little things right now. Clutter, unmade beds, things of that nature. I am trying to stay calm and take it day by day but the days are getting fewer and fewer and I am scared about it all. The other night Lance went out with some friends and I was here by myself. I thought it was a nice test run for what life will be like . I was so nervous to go to bed. I made a walk through of the house 4 times. Checking doors and windows and things around the outlets. I get paranoid and then I am wide awake. This cold was my saving grace because it makes me so tired at the end of the day. I am hoping after a few weeks I can get used to the anxiousness and sleep better at night. When he would be on duty in Virginia I would stay up til 3 or 4 in the morning then sleep til 10..It is not an option here because I have to get up and function for the sake of my girls. I am hoping to having to step up and not just worry about me will give me enough strength to do the things that have to be done, for my self and for them.
Monday, February 21, 2011
Im a slacker!
I have been so busy/sick the past few days I haven't focused on eating or working out or blogging at all!! I take a shot of nyquil at like 9 and am passed out by 930 lol. I didn't weigh myself on thursday either. Im just gonna guess and say I am still the same. I don't feel like I have lost or gained anything. I just feel like crap. I am hoping I can kick this thing by the end of this week. Lance's birthday/going away bash is this saturday and I want to have an awesome time!
Yesterday we all joined my mom and went on a walk through the clear creek trail in silverdale! I loved it!! I am totally going to take the girls like once a week. Just getting out in the freezing sunshine is so good for the soul! I even jogged a bit to keep myself "in training". Even though my training right now consists of thinking about doing the run .. I am in the stage where I am mentally preparing.
Today I am "spring cleaning". As Lance already pointed out its only February BUT in my defense I feel like I am in some way getting the house nice and clean will let the process of him leaving be a lot easier.I am re- arranging our bedroom and going through all the toys in the playroom. Ashlin got a ton of cute stuff for her birthday and I need to make room for everything! I am hoping I can burn some calories by doing that type of stuff ALL DAY LONG.
I might not update as often the next few weeks.But as soon as life here gets to its temporary normal I will update a lot more!
Yesterday we all joined my mom and went on a walk through the clear creek trail in silverdale! I loved it!! I am totally going to take the girls like once a week. Just getting out in the freezing sunshine is so good for the soul! I even jogged a bit to keep myself "in training". Even though my training right now consists of thinking about doing the run .. I am in the stage where I am mentally preparing.
Today I am "spring cleaning". As Lance already pointed out its only February BUT in my defense I feel like I am in some way getting the house nice and clean will let the process of him leaving be a lot easier.I am re- arranging our bedroom and going through all the toys in the playroom. Ashlin got a ton of cute stuff for her birthday and I need to make room for everything! I am hoping I can burn some calories by doing that type of stuff ALL DAY LONG.
I might not update as often the next few weeks.But as soon as life here gets to its temporary normal I will update a lot more!
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